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May 14, 2011

晚春 初夏

Days had been very stuffy. I guess that explains the little hiatus of update here at this site. The past weeks had been very packed. In an amazing way. In a good way. Let’s see.

The amazing journey kicked in with nothing better than the end of the finals. The papers weren’t that bad but they weren’t that good, either. It turned out, however, satisfying. The grades, I meant. Praise the Lord. I then walked on to the two important days in Christianity, namely Good Friday and Easter day. Good Friday’s service was basically great with seven leaders sharing the seven verses spoken by Jesus from the cross (the last words of Jesus) and leading an anointed prayer session. I was once again been reminded, been touched by the sacrificial love, the mightiness, the power of the death on the cross. I was once again been showered by the unfailing love and the unveiling comfort of Him, the Lord Jesus Christ. And the heart cried out, how wonderful is our God, how beautiful is our Lord. Thank You, Lord.

The next day, our oikos was up with an outing to waterfall at Hulu Langat. It was a lovely day fellowshipping, playing in water, sharing. And yes, waterfall is pretty! I would, if given a chance, definitely pay my visit to the place again! Thanks to the heavenly Father for blessing us, for providing us with all the good things. Thanks to the juniors who are willing to join us. Thanks to Howard for his car. Thanks to Akira for his camera. Thanks to Andrew for driving, especially through the nearly-two-hours-congestion. Thanks to everyone. Be blessed. And so, we finally made our way back to Shah Alam after almost two hours in the car. Dropping juniors, we went on sending Akira to KTM Station, and sending Bryan who just sprained his leg earlier that day to clinic. And so we have a temporary OKU friend.

It was Easter day then. It’s a day worth of celebration, because our God has resurrected from death, because our God has overcome death, because our God has risen and conquered the grave! Hallelujah. I’m impressed with a Sunday school’s kid singing “Here I am to worship” at the beginning of worship session. How beautiful is a kid’s voice singing praises to God. Many a time, we adults make ourselves too complicated to freely, purely praise the Lord. We lose the initial passion to yearn for God. Don’t we? It’s worth of pondering.

That particular evening, I visited Acts Church. Due to the convenience of going KL after that. Officially, our so called “The night’s still young” started. First stop, Jogoya. Thanks to Angelina for the treat. Truthfully, its food was not as good. The quality is seriously going down. Nevertheless, we had fun feasting, making jokes out of ourselves, and snapping photographs. Next stop, cinema. Watched a movie called “Limitless”. After that, it was basically the so called “syok sendiri” time where we had nothing better to do that we started to find signboards, posters, etc and we went taking pictures with us imitating the poses. Until the camera ran out of battery. In the end, we headed to a random McD’s outlet. To sleep. Got back to hostel at 6am. I did nothing but go straight to bed.

Waking up from sleep, I was reluctantly getting myself ready for BTN camp. So boarded on bus and headed to Klang. Alright, BTN wasn’t that bad. It was overall good, despite the deficiency of sleep, and the disconnection with the outside world, and some really stupid games played. So five days were gone and we were proudly graduated from BTN. Uh huh, the conclusion would be, I LOVE MALAYSIA! We are ONE MALAYSIA!

Came back from BTN, straight away I went for Apostolic Prophetic Conference in church. It was a great seminar with awesome speakers: Apostle Ron Sawka, Rev. Ong Sek Leang, and our very own senior pastor, Rev. Sitoh Veenah. All I could say is Apostle Ron Sawka is a much anointed servant of God. He leads powerful sermons. He easily builds up the anointing of Holy Spirit in people. And you know what, he remembers every single bible verses without referring to the bible. That conference basically focused more on the practical of AP where there were many apostolic prophetic actions. I am abundantly blessed throughout the seminar. Praise the Lord.

Following next, literally, ceaselessly, we’re involved in the new church renovation. Undeniably, it was tiring. But you see, God always works in such an amazing way to let us, or at least me experience Him, see from His sight. It’s the faith that we hold firm to, believing that God has His best plan in store for us. Because He is a promising God. Amen? It’s the unity of brothers and sisters moving towards the same vision which counts. It’s the fellowship among the members of Christ which matters. And we are yet to realize, all things do not just happened supernaturally. It’s God who reigns from heaven above. Appreciate, give thanks while we still can.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” –Romans 8:28.
We had a good launching service on Saturday evening. Praise Him.

Not forgetting also, I had eventually done with my passport after the very third visit to the department of immigration. Yes, thank You Lord.

It was Mother’s day. It was a Sunday. It was a very meaningful Sunday. It was even an amazing Sunday. It was the ordination of Ps. Law! Congratulations! And it was a moving service with Sunday school’s kids performing and Ps. Lim preaching. And it was an amazing day when I met up with Michelle, and together headed to Sharon’s place cluelessly, directionlessly. We missed Sharon’s birthday and so we’re out of random, thinking of giving her a surprise. We did surprise her. We did give her a blast. That matters. Because of this thing called FRIENDSHIP. Love you, babe. I’m looking forward to our next meeting.

I missed my mom a lot that night. We talked on phone for quite long. And many a time I hardly controlled my tear from rolling down. I missed home, listening to how the family members gathered and celebrated the lovely festive. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! To my mom, my two grandmas! Mother’s day present for my awesome mom this particular year is a simple yet thoughtful accessory, lipstick. Love you.

The past week had been ridiculously hot. The heat was overrated. I'm not exaggerating. Until yesterday, it finally rained. Oh praise the Lord! The temperature is coming back to normal. This week had been a blessed week. Starting off with my oikos shepherd treating us a movie and a good feast, and a match of pool or two. It's the fellowship that matters. And we had this distribution of flyers for the community service next week at Jinjang community. It was a blessed evening reaching out to the community there. I believe next Tuesday is going to be a great day servicing the community in Jinjang! And we had two lovely angels sending dessert all the way from Subang to Shah Alam to us to soothe the tension of scorching heat. Lord, bless your servants! And we had combined oikos with USJ oikos. Like, after so so long. It felt really good!  

So, it is summer sem now. I'm taking two subjects: Sociology and Experimental Biology. It's good thus far. Time is flying in a glimpse. Appreciate the last months in INTEC, people!

And it's 4:19am. Sleep tight. 
Til then.

May 11, 2011

Flatline


最近有一个愿望,就是把红蜻蜓这系列的书看完。看完这本“一封迟来的信”后,感触良多。那么的写实,那么的生活化。友情可以那么坚强,却也可以那么脆弱。我没有后悔说出很坚决的那一句不要。放不下也好,自私也好。却是真真正正的害怕。所以在承受不了之前转身离开。原来,俗语是真的。不要在任何一段感情里投注真心。赌注越大,胜算并不会跟着增多。伤害反而才是伴随着那一颗心的终结者。没有谁对谁错,那也并不重要。只是当一个信念不能认同另一个信念时,最后的胜利者并没有真正的赢得光彩,因为你根本不可能知道另外的那一方是怎么的悄悄促使整个故事的演变。忠诚。背叛。看似两个在不同极端的个体,它们其实只相差于那一线之间。很多事情,不说,因为说了亦于事无补。不说,并不代表真的什么都不懂。将所有平面化过后,重新的躲在一个角落审核,原来可以把事情看得如此清晰。所以,平面化未尝不是一件好事!

May 4, 2011

watch me burn

我没有睡不好没有睡不够 只是我并没有你们想象的大方勇敢 不要再说你懂 当你什么都不懂的时候 不要继续幼稚 那样一点都不可爱 不要继续伪装 那样只会让我更加讨厌你 假装什么都不在乎 只是每一次的刺痛却那么真实 什么都不要说 因为话语很容易伤害人 因为眼泪会不小心往下流 什么都已经不重要 只是那种傻傻的等待与在乎 原来是很私密的 不需要让任何一个人知道 知道自己在乎过就好 所谓的友谊万岁只是写在纪念册里的片面词句 都只是琅琅上口的歌词旋律 勇气和时间很重要 这个时候

想念 根本不需要理由 泪流 顺着地心吸力的原理 什么也不说 不想要爱我的人担心 只是 好好的把委屈通通都哭出来 能放心的哭一场 是再微笑的力量 #想家

April 21, 2011

一个普通朋友见了你点头微笑,
一个真正朋友见了你没有问候,

一个普通朋友几年不见就觉得生疏,
一个真正朋友十年不见却更感亲热,

一个普通朋友的电话写在电话簿上都记不住,
一个真正朋友的电话没有写下来却总记得一清二楚,

一个普通朋友来你家会很客气,
一个真正朋友来你家自己打开冰箱拿饮料,

一个普通朋友见你做错了会假装没看见,
一个真正朋友见你做错了会告诉你不能这样做,

一个普通朋友愿意和你说他的胜利往事,
一个真正朋友愿意和你说他的不如意和挫折失败,

一个普通朋友在和你吵架后就成了仇敌,
一个真正朋友在和你吵架后依然是朋友,

一个普通朋友让你近墨者黑,
一个真正朋友让你知道近墨者会黑,

一个普通的朋友只关注你飞得高不高,
一个真正的朋友只关注你飞得累不累。

April 17, 2011

考试前夕

感觉是一个很微妙的东西。渗透一切的背后真的蕴涵了那一点的什么吗?那还是保持现状。就一直的将那一点的什么藏在最深处。因为错过就是错过了。释怀也不是真的那么难嘛!


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这学期最忙的一个星期也就这样悄悄的溜走了。间中包含的欢笑,泪水,愤怒,呐喊,焦虑,压力,感动,不舍,思念,种种情绪,原来生活就是如此。

生命中拥有耶稣是很感恩的事。生命中拥有家人是很幸福的事。生命中拥有朋友是很感动的事。生命中拥有所拥有的就是最完美的一件事情!

很轰动的砂拉越选举也就这样即轰动又不轰动的结束了。我可以很大声很骄傲的说,我从头到尾都在跟进有关于大选的新闻及八卦。结果怎样我真的不是那么在乎。但是我享受那种跟进更新的感觉。就是喜欢大选前那种热闹的气氛。虽然人不在诗巫,但是还是很努力的跟进每一个报导和细节。总之就是很努力很拼命的让自己有那种置身在诗巫的感觉。不要说我吃饱没事做,我只是比较关心时事而已!

到头来,我觉得整个选举中,最可怜最无辜的人莫过于关良和张栋梁!请大家不要杯葛他们。我个人真的觉得他们超无辜!


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在特别想回家的那股冲动中,我吃到了Kampua, Kompia, 还有Galang。你知道那是多么美好的一件事吗!谢谢!诗巫的味道虽然经过了飘洋过海,它亦然是那么的温暖,那么的美妙!

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因为学校的一个活动,很有幸的可以跟一个之前一直都不是很熟的朋友合作。我们的工作呢,就是买食物。我还真是离不开食物啊?就这样莫名其妙的成为食物组委员。重点呢,这个朋友人超好!跟她在一起,我整个心情也会变好。真的。因为一些沟通上的代沟还有点点滴滴的事情导致我的心情根本就超暴躁。结果呢,跟这个朋友一起出去,我整个就忘记了要生气。哈哈!还有一个重点就是,她有一辆Mini Cooper. 所以本人就很有幸的在人生中第一次乘坐Mini Cooper.

话说,我有三个很特别的朋友。他们是徐爱真,沈美龄,还有林乾光。当然我也很特别,所以才能和他们成为朋友。话虽如此,有时候我还真的觉得我真的很可怜。因为我每一次都是被这三个特别的朋友欺负的对象。你知道他们有多特别吗?他们会使劲的唱一些很感动的歌,一直到我哭为止,然后他们就会很开心!哈哈哈!然后呢,每天都要说我身体上的某一个部位的事情。几乎呢每一件根本没有关系的事情,他们都要把它们扯在一起。当然啦,我也会很配合他们。配合他们一起活在幻想的世界里!

正经的。还是很谢谢这一群有很多点神经病的朋友!因为没有他们,生命不会充满这么多欢笑,生命不会这么精彩,生命不会时时刻刻充满惊喜!

“朋友一生一起走,那些日子不再有,一句话一辈子,一生情一杯酒。朋友不曾孤单过,一声朋友你会懂,还有伤还有痛,还要走还有我!”

朋友们,接下来的考试加油!!

April 15, 2011

but i miss you

I felt so reluctant to accept the fact that you're leaving. All in a sudden. I couldn't even send my bestie off to Japan yesterday, because of this event named Speech Night. You know, I could still suppress my emotion yesterday. I mean I just felt a bit depressed to learn the fact I was unable to send her off. Until today, when Angelina suddenly talked about the song "Friend", and especially when she started to sing it out. Oh gosh. Tears blurted out, like the water tap being turned on.  

I started to miss you already. Ivy Ho, take really good care of yourself there alright! Keep me updated always. May the Lord bless you richly in paths ahead. Be blessed with abundant grace and love from Him. All the best and take care. Much, much love. 

April 13, 2011

All of a sudden, I just want to cry. Can i just leave everything and go back home now.

you know what.

You know what. Sometime you don't say what you really mean. Not that you don't want to, instead you don't need to. A big cognition I have come out with is, you would not want to talk when you are not in the right mood. No, I think I should say, you would better be not talking because you talked something which may hurt under that kind of circumstance.

And you know what. I was pissed off earlier today. Yes, I know you are angry. But you don't need to be rude. You are not the only one who have the right to be angry. 

And and you know what. I had time spent with a very kind friend. She is so kind that I didn't dare to be angry. Or I shall say, my anger vanished all in a while. The task was tough. But I had these few lines running in my mind at that instant. We have joy, we have fun, we have season in the sun. That matters. A lot.

I need to be patient. Justin Bieber just tweeted this: patience is a virtue.

Indeed.

April 10, 2011

tough

This is the first time I typed the title before I started to type the contents. I am so sure of what I'm going to tell. TOUGH. This week is going to be very tough. I think it could be the busiest time for Spring 2011.


The whole week is packed. Fully packed. 

Let's just see:

  • Cell Biology Test.
  • Church Usher Training.
  • Empirical Report.
  • Cell Biology Assignment.
  • Speech Night.
  • Speech Night Performance's Practices.
  • Ethics' Final Exam.
  • Cell Group Worship Leading.
  • Eca Tv Clips.


Wow. I'm impressed. 

And guess what. I felt so much want to go back home for the past days. It was Chin-Ming and that was time when all or almost all relatives are going back Sibu from different places. And I SERIOUSLY miss it. I miss celebrating grandma's birthday with whole bunch of lovely members. What more, election is happening now in Sarawak. Trust me, I miss that kind of so called election-environment going around in Sibu. I miss going speeches by those candidates. I miss watching those signboards, posters hanging all around the town. I miss how different parties criticized one another. Although I'm really not that into political stuff. But still. I miss home! I miss Sibu!

Anyway, a big thank to this thing called technology for allowing at least, the virtual feeling of experience. Yeah.

Well I should be studying for tomorrow's test before I'm off to Speech Night Performance Practice. 

ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE. 

God bless you and me. 

=)

April 8, 2011

ticked.

Something that you thought and something that is a fact will never parallel each other. Yes, I thought thing should turn out in the way I thought of. And yes, it didn't happen. There's this wild desire to cry my heart out, but it's not worth it. Totally not. 

Speechless. In my very inner nerve. Because of this thing known as, fade up. There is this quote in a drama which I think speaks my conscience at this very moment. The quote sounds: Why are you asking my opinion when you're actually having your mind made up? I mean, yes, there's no point of doing that.

Time makes thing clear? It is just not now. That was what I thought. You see. The fact kicks in, telling how swallow is the thought. No one to be blamed, no one to be offended. This is just uh, some random blurting from mind after much observing of what happened these days.

Because I treasured. And I want to continue treasuring. 

April 5, 2011

;_;

当眼泪失控的流下

那就放心的哭一场


我要回家。可以吗?想回家到我真的去亚航网站查了一下飞机票。
我不想生病。可以吗?这样只会让我更想回家。

April 3, 2011

陪你等天亮

眼看星星落下
窗外一點一點出現陽光
你摸我的頭  你說我很棒
我們都是這樣
一面帶著傷痕一面飛翔
難過的時候 有我在身旁

我陪你等天亮  擁抱著一起分享
能放心的哭一場  是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的瘋狂
不管故事有多長   世界對我太善良
這一路上有你  我變得堅強

你知道我多傻
在你面前從來不用逞強
聽我說說話   讓我靠一下
我們都是這樣
想要幸福卻都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕 有我在身旁

我陪你等天亮  擁抱著一起分享
能放心的哭一場  是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的瘋狂
不管故事有多長  世界對我太善良
這一路上有你  我變得堅強
你才看見  我早已經學會
就算逆風  也能好好帶著祝福不再流淚
勇敢地飛  然后分享那種喜悅

我們都是這樣 
一面帶著傷痕一面飛翔
難過的時候  有你在身旁
我陪你等天亮  擁抱著一起分享
能放心的哭一場  是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的瘋狂
不管故事有多長  世界對我太善良
這一路上有你  我變得堅強



许慧欣,潘玮仪 - 陪你等天亮。

一直以来都很爱很爱的一首歌。一首歌词旋律都很赞的歌。听得很感动,听得很陶醉,听得很上瘾,听得很窝心。

就这样,就这样一直的让我陪着你一起等天亮。
就这样,就这样一直的让我拥抱着一起分享。
就这样,就这样一起带着伤痕一起飞翔。
就这样,就这样一直的明白我的疯狂。

就这样,就这样摸摸我的头。
就这样,就这样听我说说话。
就这样,就这样让我靠一下。

就这样,就这样不管故事有多长。
就这样,就这样带着祝福不再流泪。
就这样,就这样朝着我们的幸福前进。
就这样,就这样因为有你让我变得坚强。

=)