breakthrough

I had had only a very single post for the, almost, whole month of June, unbelievably. 

What had happened to me, seriously? My days were so packed, so busy, during this very season of summer. 

I have no idea of why, but I really screwed my summer, I mean, in my academic performance. Somehow, sad. Yea, I did. And felt like so sorry for some people. I'm sorry.

Realized that, emotion is irresistible. Yea, may be you can suppress and deal with it in the beginning; but, the duration won't be long. Some day, it'll overflow, when you really can't resist with it any longer.

And is it, unconsciously and unsoundly, turning into a habitual schedule?

And is it, pretense to be so good that, as if, either one is blind, or the other is invisible?

You know what? The words like sad, depressed, are like, futile already. Instead, it's death, the dying off of a heart, which after a lot of pain, a lot of attempts, yet, everything is malfunctioning, and eventually the heart, or the will dies off, and the numbness creeps and attacks, that everything feels normal as though it's what it was. Whilst, in the deep inside, you know it wasn't. But, you know also, coherently, nothing can be done. And you choose to let it be in the end, with the faith of believing time can heal the bleeding heart. 

But is that really the case? If that is, there wouldn't be piles and piles of tissue papers lying around. If that is, there wouldn't be a pair of bulgy eyes on an emotionless face. If that is, there wouldn't be a passionate heart growing cold. If that is, there wouldn't be hypocrite with smile on the face but tears in the heart.

I'm sad, you know? 

Or, do you even care?

in a glimpse.

First thing first, I really can't believe myself for not updating my blog, like, for ages. Unbelievable. Busy? Somehow, but not really. Lazy? Yea, most probably. Darn me.

Alright. Some quick glimpses, just want to keep up and catch up with my life, with the things happened in my life.

And time went by in a really freakishly fast pace. It's June already. June. Nearly half of the year is done! Uh, time is cruel. 

So, 1st June. It was Polycarp's birthday. Gave him a blast, quite a success blast for him. Blessed birthday and a blessed year ahead bro! Spent my time with a bunch of juniors from Japanese program. Nice time with them!

birthday boy!

And then, 3rd of June. Out of random, we went for movie. We shall refer to Rachel, Jazz, Lawrence, Aje, and I. The Bounty Hunter at Sunway Pyramid's cinema. A funny movie! Some sort of ridiculous though.

After that we were so hungry and finally we decided to eat in Pizza Hut. Lawrence went on for his own stuff after the movie, so left only four of us.

Jazz

Rachel

Aje

And then, after that, Aje went off too. And left the three of us. And we had a great time shopping! Woots!! And I met up with Ivy too. 

likey!

Then. 4th of June. Kind of absurd, believe or not, I took my flight back to Sibu! Weeeeeee! I was so happy man! Yea, the 4th of June, early in the morning, I took cab to KTM station. And then took the train to KL Sentral. And then took the bus to LCCT. And then finally, took the Airasia's flight, and flew back to my lovely Sibu! 

Owh! It felt so great to be home!! Uh well, I went back for a purpose of attending a family function. Yeah. It felt undoubtedly awesome to be home, to meet up with family members, relatives. The sheer feeling of home, you know how it feels! Awwww.

sister

my mum

jia yi

wenn & cherng

love this photograph a lot!

And time flew. It's cruel, very cruel. It was Sunday and willing or not, I got to take my flight back to KL. It was sad you know. It was particularly very very very sad when my mum was weeping when I went into the boarding room. And when I saw my mum crying, I just couldn't bear my tears. Urgh. I knew I failed again.

Oh yea. I met Kelvin in the airport. Uh. He's indeed a very good guy! I never met a guy who is such caring and who is such gentleman. Seriously, he is. Thank you for the day! Really really thank you! And of course, thanks God for my safe journeys!

7th of June. The night, I attended the basix class in church. It's a great course! The first lesson I guess I already learned a lot of things, the things which we don't really think of usually. Am looking forward to the rest of the course!

And the 8th of June. It was Summer's birthday. A great day in Midvalley! Blessed birthday sis! Love ya! And yea, Letters to Juliet was a great movie. Hah. Lorenzo! It was sort of a touching, romantic, and sweet love story. 

birthday girl.

love this photograph!!

And we had the LIL's meet-up on Wednesday. It was a great one! God is just so amazing! The meeting on that particular day just felt so good, when everyone seemed to have no intention to end the sharing. Everyone just enjoyed the time sharing and listening to God's works. Praise The Lord!!

And then, Thursday. We had a great oikos! Although there were only five of us, it just felt great! Learned a lot of things through Leonard's sharing. Obedience! The thing I'm learning. Oh Lord. You guide my heart. Guide my heart more than anything else. Keep reminding myself to set my priority to God in everything I'm doing. Please God in everything I'm doing, rather than pleasing myself. Thank you Lord. God is just so great! Hallelujah! Glory is to the mighty Lord!! Amen!

And now, it's Friday. A no-class-day! I'm going to spend my day wisely! 

I shall sleep now. Good Night!