F A I T H

It had been long when a movie could touch heart, at least mine in that kind of stunning way. It had been so long when a movie could really termed as movie, worthy of watching. Believe me, 127 hours made it. 

Nothing beats one's will to live.

Every second counts.

Based on a true story, the movie stunned me, with the great message delivered, with the overflown but well done editing skills with the just cool sound effects. 

It was an amazing weekend. Faith really counts. 

When God's being prioritized, everything's well.
With His abundant blessing.

For this much faith I have in You. Thank You.

Praise is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul.

I just want to praise You, Lord!

=)

新。序

今晚 无论如何 一定要好好的更新一下部落格。现在是11点50分。

过了一个很棒很充实的农历新年。竟然在诗巫呆了有点难以置信的十九天！逃了三天的课，丢了两张飞机票。祝福满满，享受家，享受诗巫的一切，甚至庆祝了元宵节才返回西马。

今年的新年，因为公公刚去世不久，所以涵义上庆祝的比往年来得较平淡一些。但是我真的非常珍惜，珍惜与家人一起的时光，珍惜与朋友一起的时刻。就在与中学的朋友们团拜的那一天，在与他们道别的那一霎那，竟然万分感慨涌上心头。每个人都即将要踏上各自的人生旅途，生活就是如此残酷，就连何时再见面都似乎是如此的遥遥无期。

十九天的假期，也就这么一眨眼消失不见了。搭上最最早的那一班飞机，万分不舍的说再见。跟外婆说我走了 bye bye，结果还是怎么样都忍不住眼泪，偷偷的转过身擦掉它。到了机场一直和妈妈一起，到了最后最后的那几分钟才姗姗的走进 boarding room. 虽然妈咪没有说，但是我知道她在想着同样的事情。因为好几次，在我说我先进去了的时候，她都一直拖着我，问着说着一些有的没的。走进去时，始终还是没有那股勇气转回头去看，因为心脏和眼泪都会负荷不了。

今天算是回来的第六天。慢慢的，一切步法又要不停的重复。

最近真的很多人离开又或者即将离开马来西亚 出国读书了。那天在教会，牧师就请了一个一直以来都很要好的朋友，姐妹，上台分享了这两年以来的感受，出国前的感言。听着听着，我竟然湿了眼眶，偷偷的掉了几滴眼泪。那天晚上，帮另外一个朋友办了一个饯行派对。玩得好疯好疯，主角本身也很乐在其中。后来散场过后，几个比较要好的又续摊往下一场。几个人坐着，细细的享受着蛋糕，分享一些童年趣事，一些年少无知。霎然间，觉得生命真的很美好。无论身在何处，神必有他最美好的旨意在我们里头。在生命的不同阶段，遇到的每一个人，每一件事情，都有他的祝福。珍惜当下 应该是我们每一个人都应当要学习的。

时间真的过的很快很快。

接下来的三个星期，将会很忙很忙。功课，考试，帮Akira edit video，教会的Eca Tv. 

但是最重要的是，三个星期后就又可以回家了！

愿神祝福每一个人，每一个事工。

忘记背后，努力现在，展望未来！

珍惜每一个感动！为主来发光！为主来奔跑！

现在是12点45分。

打华文真的好慢 -

wan an!

痛

阔别十九天 终究都回到了这个没有任何一个人想回来的地方？发生了不是很愉快的事。真的 没有在怪任何人。只是 眼泪很不听使唤的落下。竟然在巴士上哭个大花脸。谢谢 Grace 紧紧的抱住我。真的不是事情本身或是任何人的错。只是 回到来 心情都还没淡定下来的时候 面对着或许真的只是一件很小的事情的时候 却满满的足以让人想回家。

很不舍 有多不舍就有多不舍。

*脚又开始发作很久都没有的痛。

五

外头正在下着倾盆大雨。伴随的是吓人的闪电，恐怖的打雷声。每一次在宿舍遇上闪电打雷下大雨的时候，说实在的，我感到害怕，没有安全感。这种时候，是多么多么的渴望可以在家中，溺在家温暖的怀抱，家人慈祥的臂膀。

新年歌曲在不停的播放着，让我想回家的心情越是强烈。有这么一个词，归心似箭，不是吗？我想我真的深深的体会到了它的涵义。就在看了“天天好天”过后。

特别的戏是要跟特别的人一起看。就在一个很特别的午后，一群很特别的四个人，前往一个很特别的地方，坐在很特别的位子上看了这部很特别的戏。我，爱真小姐，Rachel 小姐，Aje 先生，去了Klang 的 Jusco，然后因为太多人所以坐在很前很前的第二排的位子，开始了这部很棒很棒的电影。特别吧！完完整整的充分的体现了一个马来西亚的精神！原来呢，电影字幕就是在这种时候发挥它的功效。

再一部很棒的本土电影！再一次的感动。更多的体会。通过镜头所捕捉到的细腻，一幕幕如此真实的体现，每一幕都是如斯的扣人心弦。真诚的演员，赤纯的演技，揪人的情节，洒脱的，骄傲的跨上大荧幕，制作班底的努力观众是有目共识的，告捷的票房是最美丽的呈现，是毋庸置疑的！

好吧，我哭点低。从电影开始的半个小时过后，就开始哭了，一直到电影结束。原来啊，把头抬高，眼泪还是会滑落的。阿公与孙女的戏份让我想起了我的公公。我真的很想念他。真的。一幕幕都那么的真实，那么轻易的牵动每一根心弦。一句再熟悉不过的词语，子欲养儿亲不在，再一次在戏中被提起，似乎在告诉人们，提醒人们这一个看似平凡却似那么难以达到的道理。不是能不能，而是要不要！只要你愿意，生命是可以拥有更多无止境的 +1。晴天 雨天 都有属于你的感动与快乐。晴天 雨天 天天都是好天！

另外一部不能错过的电影，笑着回家！再一部很棒的巨作。一部让你笑破肚皮的喜剧。间中带着丝丝的感动，回味无穷。跨国的合作，老实说，这部戏的素质多多少少当然会比天天好天来的好。呈现出新加坡与马来西亚的文化，社会现况，每一幕如此真实赤裸的体现在观众面起。重重笑点当中又不忘带出电影所要呈现的意义。

年年回家，今年笑着回家！有什么事情是比跟家人一起吃一顿团圆饭来的更重要呢？

最近，花了很多钱，买了很多年货，听了很多新年歌，看了很多戏，做了很多事，发现了许多事情，了解许多道理，体会了许多生活细节。人与人之间总存在着一层似有似无的隔阂。一个很小的群组里还存在着许许多多更小的群党。但到了最后，每个人还是每个人的朋友？敌人？都只是所谓的临时演员吧。有的时候，真心就真的在这些尔虞我诈的背后悄悄地被埋没了。

只有小孩，拥有不被污染的真心，单纯的童真，简单的快乐。只有在小孩子的面前，才会发现，可以那么真实的做自己，可以那么没有防备的卸下伪装的面具，回归似乎不见了许久的赤纯快乐。对啊，是在感叹，但是，世界就是这样。如果可以，永远都不要长大该有多好！

最近，爱上了 辣。生活太过单调了 以至需要一些辣来调剂吗？


还有五天就能回到家了。五天！一月 二十八号。星期五。
倒数中。

原来 失望是这种感受。言语 行为 思想 交流 所有都是枉然。



事  与  愿  违  ？

just the way you are

...and that's why i love chinese new year. two weeks to home!

*photographs: some random shots at pavilion. 

1/11/11

is nonetheless another blessed day. Good Lord.

It was fun taking the class photographs. Uh I'm looking forward to see the real photographs. A little bit of expensive though. But yah, memory is what matters.

Some photographs of the day, taken in the class. With How Soon's very cool mobile phone's camera. Awesome stuff! 

The class sorta ended already, fyi. :)

LIKE this! :)

Dinner with a bunch of brothers in Christ somewhere at Shah Alam. Played pool after that. It had been treating me, just fair? First round was good, but I would not say that for the second round. Nice fellowship though. Praise the Lord.

Cherish the last moments of 1/11/11... with sleep. Yah, sleep tight! Good night. God bless you!

frailty

It all happens because the 8am class was canceled. What more, the news arrived when we had already boarded on the Intec bus. The fun thing was seeing people running, rushing for class whilst we're taking our very sweet time strolling extraordinarily slowly to ALM Cafe and killing the half an hour there until the library opened. 

And it was a sudden thought flashing in my mind. I think I'm going to miss Intec after I really leave this place some day in the future. 

I'm feeling like fever. Ah please no. God, please bless me with Your will, whatever it may be. Amen.

I shall sleep.

week 1

Week 1 of the brand new year. Week 1 of the brand new semester. 

Exactly 7 days since I'm back to Shah Alam from my beloved Sibu. And you know what, I couldn't believe myself missing home so badly, almost everyday. I actually cried for five times for the reason, especially in the midnight, out of the period of seven days, which actually means five days out of the seven days. And the craziest thing I had done, I actually went online checking for cheap flight to Sibu, just so if there's any. You see how bad the homesickness was. Of course, I didn't manage to go home- the tickets were so friggin' expensive! 

The very first week wasn't really that bad, despite the really serious homesickness. But it just didn't feel like Spring, which means to be hectic and busy. Perhaps it's just the first week. Weather had been treating me well. And I really hope it remains as it's now for the next few months. I'm just loving this awesome weather!

Spring semester. I'm currently taking six subjects. They'd be Chemistry, Experimental Chemistry, Cell Biology, Technical Writing, Ethics (as usual), and another very interesting special subject, which again is meant for the only nine Agriculture Science-based us, Statistical Theory for Economics. Special huh? Another thing is, I'll be studying about law, you know, law as in the Federal Constitution for the Ethics this time around. I've no idea of why, so don't ask me why. Classes had been uh, so far so good? 

Spring '11.

And you know what. We, most of us received warning letter from the hostel staff for not doing clearance for the previous semester. Crap. And I'm admiring our skills of composing something which basically is not the fact. But I really didn't see the point. I mean, we actually did clearance, it's just that we didn't return the key to the office. But yah. There it goes.

Compose.

The other day we went to Sunway Pyramid. A sudden random decision and that's all. The funny thing was, you know, we're running after train. Literally. We were miles away when the train was reaching. We ran, and ran, and ran like never before. That was so FUNNY. I'm smiling now when I recalled it. Yah, so we ran and thank God that we managed to get in the train eventually. I guess we're going to kill ourselves if we couldn't catch the train, in the fact that we ran like crazily exaggeratively hard. And here's another very funny account. Our beloved Ivy had been so direction-less to not know how to differentiate the head and the tail of the train. When Yeh Tung was saying to get in the compartment at the head of the train, she went running all the way to the very very last compartment, which is the compartment at the tail of the train. Uh huh, she has had very good stamina!   

I had great time, despite all odds. HAHA. The red apple of Ivy, the green apple of mine, and the raw vege of Yeh Tung! Had a great time dining and photo-shooting at Pasta Zanmai. 

Pasta Zanmai. :)

And then, we intruded into Angelina's room blasting her during her big day. Successful blast! Happy 20th. May the year and decade ahead be joyous, prosperous. Experience God's grace abundantly and may the mighty Lord bless you richly in every aspects of your life! God loves you. I love you. :D

Thank you for making it a success. 

God is good. Meeting church brothers and sisters after a hiatus of two months felt great. Freedom to commit, power to transform! Praise, worship, is all to the Lord.

And today, I was frustrated by my long fringe and out of random I took scissors and cut the fringe a little bit. Myself. Whoa. I just cut like that. Now I'm suddenly fretting what if I cut it not nice. Anyway, thank God that my skill was still okay. At least it's not too bad, and the most important thing is the fringe doesn't feel frustrating anymore. :)

Many people actually said that my blog is too wordy. Uh huh, so perhaps new year's resolution on this blog would be inserting more pictures in between the words. If I'm not lazy. 

And so, week 1 was gone. 

Three more weeks to Chinese New Year.

I'm so looking forward to going back Sibu!

back-to-back

It's time to try defying gravity.
But it really doesn't work.

Back in Shah Alam, reluctantly. No one would have come back willingly I guess. I'm so unprepared. Yet class is going to start very soon. You know, that kind of familiarity which is yet strange. I think I'm still not adaptive enough. 

The later half of the year-end-break, like I mentioned in the previous post, I had been working as a promoter. And that was such a great experience, or I would rather say, memory. You know, working in supermarket is but a way to meet a lot, I mean, a lot of people. I had met so many friends and a lot of my high school's and primary school's teachers. And that we got to catch up a little bit, and that's great! I wouldn't have the time and chance to really catch up with so many people in only a few days. Another thing is all those new friends I had come to know. Those other products' promoters. I really had great time. And now I start to miss them already.

The youngest ones, three of us. :)

The most wonderful time of the year, Christmas was but time to rejoice, time to give thanks, time to celebrate, time to learn the truest meaning of the Christmas day. The very thick and deep atmosphere of this lovely festival was indeed without doubt, implanted in the very blessed town, the very lovely and pretty hometown of mine. And you see, that's why I wanted to spend my Christmas back home. 

Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. -Luke 2:11.

Joy to the world. 

With Ms. Wong's birthday celebration of much love and joy, and the complement of the romantic venue- Baba and Siam, I was indulged. The romantic, cozy, late afternoon, and it's as if we're back to our high school time, chattering, babbling away in a so familiar tone and pitch, and that's very awesome. Love can be very simple, when you're feeling it with heart, sincerely. 

Happy Birthday. <3

Church's youth camp had really made me reminisced my very own youthful days. And I smile. Lord has my teenage years great. Yes, reminiscent is beautiful, memory is great. Time flies, but life goes on. No? Yet it's kind of uh, pathetic to realize that I'm stepping into 20 years old. 

And with that, 2010 ended. To sum it up, 2010 was good and bad. But I thank God for every paths He leads me on. I thank God for His abundant blessings throughout the year. I won't say it was an easy year, there were times when things just went wrong and I got really pissed. But with Lord's guidance, every step I had taken went on with intensive peace, joy, and hope. I love you, Jesus.

Bye 2010. Hello 2011.

Faith. Hope. Love.

And it really does work.

Salvatore

You know, that kind of cognition which lies beneath details of life can be amazing. That kind of beautiful cognition comes to the surface gracefully when you see it sincerely, you wouldn't even need to peel it off purposely. Here's how the cognition came to my mind. It just happened and  I was certainly moved and stunned by how little details my mum bears, how she nurtures her kids with consideration of every bits of love, even when the kids have literally grow up, I mean, even when the kids are not more really little. But, in a mum's eyes, kid is always that little baby who she's not going to let go forever. 

My sister has always had a very serious allergy on seafood. So my mum would never add any seafood, for an instance, prawn into the dishes. Or sometime, there would be two version of dishes, one with the seafood and the another not. Somehow, routinely, virtually it had become an unspoken tradition. Somewhat, we, or basically, I had so gotten used to it that I barely remembered how the tradition was actually originated. And here it goes. My sister went to Kuching and it was the winter solstice day. And my mum was preparing for the dishes. She uttered something sounded like, "add the prawn into the mihun." And I was like, "err.." for seconds trying to figure out what's wrong. And the next second my mum said, "ah non(my sister) is not at home." You see it? She remembered every little things of us. And she doesn't really 'remembered', but is remembering every now and then. Thank you. <3

I attended a marriage dinner the other day. People really change with the growing of age, externally and most importantly, internally. The way you think, the way you view things. I used to get excited attending marriage functions when I am younger. You know, that kind of child-fun, eating, looking at the beautiful bride and groom, wearing pretty dresses, playing around with the almost-same-age-cousins. As the age grows, I still love that kind of warmth and joy attending the same kind of function, but it always comes along with very different kind of perspective and realization. Frequently I am moved when they're giving pieces of words to their parents, when they're simply hugging each other, hugging their parents, or when they're kissing each other. Every time I feel touched in a way or another and always, feel hard to hold back the falling tear.  

I am working as a promoter now. It ain't an easy job, really. Saying the same whole thing repeatedly for the (literally) entire day ain't as simple. But, dealing with different type of people throughout the day could be interesting. Yah. I am going to update about the working experience soon. 'til then, see ya. :)

One more day to Christmas! 

Yee-huh. I've no idea of the title, by the way. But yah, I'm hooked on The Vampires' Diaries very very badly. Ah, it's always ADDICTIVE. 

Good night!

爱。喜乐。生命

忆 跌入深深的隧。

回到诗巫在戏院观看的第一步电影竟是一部本土并新加坡演员加持制作的片子，Lelio popo. 一直以来都觉得本地的电影很真诚，很赤纯，带着深深的感动。果然，不负众望，至少，不负我望，它再一次为本地电影画下新的乐章。重重的笑点当中，还不忘反映现今的生活，带出看似简易但却深沉的教导。原以为的笑片却让我带着哭肿的双眼离开戏院。

很谢谢当天随行的Akira, Andrew, Lawrence. 连日接踵的挑战真的让我有种莫名的喘不过气。当天的出游，无论如何，真的多少舒缓了紧绷的情绪。细细品茗着诗巫的风情，再一次的感受她的美，她那熟悉的味道，她的宁静，她的优雅。任凭夕阳的晚风吹打在脸上，毛孔呼吸到的不是如外地的沙土尘埃，而是那风中的自然芬芳。诗巫真的很美！

随着公公的逝世，似乎回到乡下陪伴婆婆的次数无形中增加了许多。似乎大家都意识到了子欲养而亲不在的意境。霎时，我好想念他。自有意识以来，第一次面对了至亲的死亡。或许，死亡并不是那么的可怕，离别才是难耐的一环。想起婆婆抓着我的手哭着说，mimi, 以后没有公公了。啊！为何离别是如此的残酷，如此的不解风情！

一件又一件的事情，似乎无声无息的掀起了那个从未有的自己。学着面对，学着接受，学着相信。也因为某一些说不上的原因，似乎感觉到自己那股蠢蠢欲动的叛逆和某些成份的噪郁感于某些不想做的事情上。那是很自私的想法。总会有一个意识说让我好好享受家人的宠爱，家乡的熏陶，请不要叫我做一些我真的不想在这个时间，这个地方做的事情。潜意识真的似乎就会将那些不想视而不理。就让我偶尔的叛逆一下，好吗。

而原来，好朋友是就算许久未见面都还可以很坦然很自然毫无寂静毫不尴尬的谈天说地，毫无避忌毫无形象，不理会路人异样目光的大声嚷嚷，大声的自然的属于我们的豪迈大笑。不避讳的如疯颠般三个人一起挤入同一间试衣间，说一些属于我们之间的笑话，以逛街为名义的同时间，却根本无暇于挑选物品；在美食当前的同时间，却也无暇于真正的品茗；乃是争取着每一分钟滔滔的诉说那无止尽的故事，秘密。

爱。喜乐。生命

生命有你们真好

最近一直听到一首很好听的歌曲，特别喜欢歌曲中的某一段旋律。“春风不解风情，吹动少年的心”，每每听到这一段歌词和旋律时，就会有一阵奇异的暖流在心底划过。

感觉无需任何奢侈多余的点缀。

静静聆听。静静享受。静静感受。