三个星期

最近似乎跟“三个星期”特别有缘。

首先呢，年头的时候就回到Shah Alam 开始了新的一个学期。上课了“三个星期”，就又回到Sibu 过新年。新年假期，再加上偶然增长的假期，就在Sibu 逗留了很丰盛很有意义的“三个星期”。接着呢，就再次回到了Shah Alam 继续上学。然后又很巧的，又是再一次的“三个星期”过后，Mid-term break 而又回到我最爱的Sibu 了！生活真美妙啊。

这一篇应该要从新年过后的那“三个星期”说起。感觉好就没有好好的打出一篇文章。

三个星期，除去了第一个星期，剩下的两个星期应该是这个学期到目前为止最忙的一段时期。忙，忙得很开心，忙得有意义。

间中夹杂欢笑，泪水，感动，感触。

 考试。让我觉得很可笑。考试的最终目的竟然是那很可笑的分数！所谓大学生，却依然存在那种比较分数，遮盖分数的幼稚行为。一直以来，都很不能理解很不能明白，分数真的这么重要吗？真的有必要为了这种可笑的小事而心烦一整天，甚至在不经意间与别人结仇吗？

做好自己的本分，对得起自己就好！分数真的不代表什么，甚至什么都不是。

除了考试呢，还有两个的video editing. 接着，参与了American Got Talent 简称AGT 还有Class parade 的排练。同时间还要完成Technical Writing 的网页设计并在隔天present. 老实说，很满意我们一组的网页。虽然真的是在很短的时间并连夜赶工完成的。Presentation 也都很顺利。老师呢，看起来也蛮喜欢它的样子。感谢赞美主！

网页的首页。

来说一下AGT Audition吧。练习的时候呢，How Soon就不小心受伤了。再加上时间紧迫，上台的时候简直就一团乱。希望Yap 不要太失望呀。话说呢，我们的学弟妹好像很多才多艺呵！结论呢，就是我不小心变成了dancer！哈哈哈。

然后呢，三个星期里头，去了KL 三次。也就是每个星期都有去到KL 就对了。第一个星期的拜五，在Cheras 庆祝雅意的生日。然后就呆在那儿看半夜场电影。那天晚上，罗志祥竟然在Pavilion 有签唱会。很好笑的就是，到了活动结束了，我才知道这个消息！那天就看了127 Hours！在之前的post 有提及过。

第二个星期，原本是要去Jogoya，结果因为太多人，最后转站到Lot 10 的 Shabu One. 很丰盛的一餐啊！后来因为Rachel 要见她朋友，就去到了Pavilion 然后迈向戏院。看了 “I am number four”. 很不错的电影。但是我们自己所幻想的情节似乎比电影本身更精彩。跟爱真两个在戏院根本疯了，想笑又得憋着还真是痛苦啊。

再来呢，第三个星期，拜五早上就搭飞机回来Sibu 了！因为第二天的班机很早，所以前一天晚上就下到KL 了。话说我们真是很有探险家精神呵！什么都不懂，什么都没有计划，就拉着行李出发了。到了KL Sentral 就很晚了。第一件做的事情就先找loker 然后把行李放进去。接着就搭着最后一辆Monorail 到了Bukit Bintang. 开始我们的The night is still young! 哈哈。首先呢，就去医了我们的肚子，是很棒很棒的华人餐！接着呢，毫无方向的到处乱走。最后决定去Pavilion 然后买了电影票，进戏院看 “Sanctum”. 很好看！James Cameron 所执导的戏果然还是有一定的水准！但是爱真却在戏院里睡了两小时。

看完戏，一片茫然。最后坐计程车回到KL Sentral. 然后买了巴士票，启程去机场。机场还真是the night is still young！超多人！连想找一个地方坐下都有点难。不过最后还是找到了位子然后继续睡觉。结果呢睡过了头，差点赶不上飞机。最后还是顺利的搭上飞机，平安抵达民都鲁。谢谢爱真的爸爸载我们回到Sibu. 所以呢，我现在在Sibu 过着似天堂的生活。哈哈！

友情。最近感触良多。有时候，一直以来都认为是好朋友的朋友，有时候在各种因素的影响下，彼此的关系在无意间，在人们没有发现下，就悄悄的不再是原有的样子了。怎么说呢，间中总存在着一层隔阂，很难能消除的那种隔阂。也许是彼此一起相处的时间的关系。彼此间的那种默契，那种互动，真的是所谓朋友间很需要的因素。真的要好好珍惜当下所拥有的。至少以后往回看，自己是没有遗憾的。

Sibu. 还是一样这么温暖，这么可爱。享受与家人亲戚们一起的时光。享受与朋友们共度的时间。享受每天早上被妈咪叫起床然后跟家人一起出去吃早餐。享受妈咪特别在每一餐准备的大餐。享受家里三个baby 的笑声，哭声。享受家里两条狗的叫吠声，虽然我真的不怎么喜欢它们。享受冲凉时有热水器。享受一切的一切。珍惜所有的一切。珍惜跟几个小学老师们的聚餐。珍惜跟好久没见面的朋友见面。珍惜Sibu 的美食。珍惜Sibu 独有的味道。

人生。无常。上一秒跟下一秒的事情谁也不能料到。两天之内，听到了两个老师过世的消息。一个是小学老师，一个是学院的老师。安息吧。谢谢您们曾经付出的一切。

现在。一星期的假期过后，又从Sibu 回到Shah Alam了。基于懒惰的关系呢，这一篇文章写了很多天。从Sibu写到了Shah Alam.

很忙碌的开始。接下来会是很忙的一个星期。

发现。一件很残酷的事实。我易黑，但不易白！这真是很懊恼啊！

刚刚。妈咪打电话来，只为了叫我赶快睡觉。窝心。

虽然。还是会有想家。但是会好的！

晚安！神祝福你！

nil

After so long, it's the very first time I feel that I'm so distracted with the thing so called, mark. 

I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Why the hell is mark so important, in some people's mind? Mark isn't all, mark isn't anything man! Is it just me or mark is really that important? 

I just can't and never can adapt to this kind of environment. 

F A I T H

It had been long when a movie could touch heart, at least mine in that kind of stunning way. It had been so long when a movie could really termed as movie, worthy of watching. Believe me, 127 hours made it. 

Nothing beats one's will to live.

Every second counts.

Based on a true story, the movie stunned me, with the great message delivered, with the overflown but well done editing skills with the just cool sound effects. 

It was an amazing weekend. Faith really counts. 

When God's being prioritized, everything's well.
With His abundant blessing.

For this much faith I have in You. Thank You.

Praise is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul.

I just want to praise You, Lord!

=)

新。序

今晚 无论如何 一定要好好的更新一下部落格。现在是11点50分。

过了一个很棒很充实的农历新年。竟然在诗巫呆了有点难以置信的十九天！逃了三天的课，丢了两张飞机票。祝福满满，享受家，享受诗巫的一切，甚至庆祝了元宵节才返回西马。

今年的新年，因为公公刚去世不久，所以涵义上庆祝的比往年来得较平淡一些。但是我真的非常珍惜，珍惜与家人一起的时光，珍惜与朋友一起的时刻。就在与中学的朋友们团拜的那一天，在与他们道别的那一霎那，竟然万分感慨涌上心头。每个人都即将要踏上各自的人生旅途，生活就是如此残酷，就连何时再见面都似乎是如此的遥遥无期。

十九天的假期，也就这么一眨眼消失不见了。搭上最最早的那一班飞机，万分不舍的说再见。跟外婆说我走了 bye bye，结果还是怎么样都忍不住眼泪，偷偷的转过身擦掉它。到了机场一直和妈妈一起，到了最后最后的那几分钟才姗姗的走进 boarding room. 虽然妈咪没有说，但是我知道她在想着同样的事情。因为好几次，在我说我先进去了的时候，她都一直拖着我，问着说着一些有的没的。走进去时，始终还是没有那股勇气转回头去看，因为心脏和眼泪都会负荷不了。

今天算是回来的第六天。慢慢的，一切步法又要不停的重复。

最近真的很多人离开又或者即将离开马来西亚 出国读书了。那天在教会，牧师就请了一个一直以来都很要好的朋友，姐妹，上台分享了这两年以来的感受，出国前的感言。听着听着，我竟然湿了眼眶，偷偷的掉了几滴眼泪。那天晚上，帮另外一个朋友办了一个饯行派对。玩得好疯好疯，主角本身也很乐在其中。后来散场过后，几个比较要好的又续摊往下一场。几个人坐着，细细的享受着蛋糕，分享一些童年趣事，一些年少无知。霎然间，觉得生命真的很美好。无论身在何处，神必有他最美好的旨意在我们里头。在生命的不同阶段，遇到的每一个人，每一件事情，都有他的祝福。珍惜当下 应该是我们每一个人都应当要学习的。

时间真的过的很快很快。

接下来的三个星期，将会很忙很忙。功课，考试，帮Akira edit video，教会的Eca Tv. 

但是最重要的是，三个星期后就又可以回家了！

愿神祝福每一个人，每一个事工。

忘记背后，努力现在，展望未来！

珍惜每一个感动！为主来发光！为主来奔跑！

现在是12点45分。

打华文真的好慢 -

wan an!

痛

阔别十九天 终究都回到了这个没有任何一个人想回来的地方？发生了不是很愉快的事。真的 没有在怪任何人。只是 眼泪很不听使唤的落下。竟然在巴士上哭个大花脸。谢谢 Grace 紧紧的抱住我。真的不是事情本身或是任何人的错。只是 回到来 心情都还没淡定下来的时候 面对着或许真的只是一件很小的事情的时候 却满满的足以让人想回家。

很不舍 有多不舍就有多不舍。

*脚又开始发作很久都没有的痛。

五

外头正在下着倾盆大雨。伴随的是吓人的闪电，恐怖的打雷声。每一次在宿舍遇上闪电打雷下大雨的时候，说实在的，我感到害怕，没有安全感。这种时候，是多么多么的渴望可以在家中，溺在家温暖的怀抱，家人慈祥的臂膀。

新年歌曲在不停的播放着，让我想回家的心情越是强烈。有这么一个词，归心似箭，不是吗？我想我真的深深的体会到了它的涵义。就在看了“天天好天”过后。

特别的戏是要跟特别的人一起看。就在一个很特别的午后，一群很特别的四个人，前往一个很特别的地方，坐在很特别的位子上看了这部很特别的戏。我，爱真小姐，Rachel 小姐，Aje 先生，去了Klang 的 Jusco，然后因为太多人所以坐在很前很前的第二排的位子，开始了这部很棒很棒的电影。特别吧！完完整整的充分的体现了一个马来西亚的精神！原来呢，电影字幕就是在这种时候发挥它的功效。

再一部很棒的本土电影！再一次的感动。更多的体会。通过镜头所捕捉到的细腻，一幕幕如此真实的体现，每一幕都是如斯的扣人心弦。真诚的演员，赤纯的演技，揪人的情节，洒脱的，骄傲的跨上大荧幕，制作班底的努力观众是有目共识的，告捷的票房是最美丽的呈现，是毋庸置疑的！

好吧，我哭点低。从电影开始的半个小时过后，就开始哭了，一直到电影结束。原来啊，把头抬高，眼泪还是会滑落的。阿公与孙女的戏份让我想起了我的公公。我真的很想念他。真的。一幕幕都那么的真实，那么轻易的牵动每一根心弦。一句再熟悉不过的词语，子欲养儿亲不在，再一次在戏中被提起，似乎在告诉人们，提醒人们这一个看似平凡却似那么难以达到的道理。不是能不能，而是要不要！只要你愿意，生命是可以拥有更多无止境的 +1。晴天 雨天 都有属于你的感动与快乐。晴天 雨天 天天都是好天！

另外一部不能错过的电影，笑着回家！再一部很棒的巨作。一部让你笑破肚皮的喜剧。间中带着丝丝的感动，回味无穷。跨国的合作，老实说，这部戏的素质多多少少当然会比天天好天来的好。呈现出新加坡与马来西亚的文化，社会现况，每一幕如此真实赤裸的体现在观众面起。重重笑点当中又不忘带出电影所要呈现的意义。

年年回家，今年笑着回家！有什么事情是比跟家人一起吃一顿团圆饭来的更重要呢？

最近，花了很多钱，买了很多年货，听了很多新年歌，看了很多戏，做了很多事，发现了许多事情，了解许多道理，体会了许多生活细节。人与人之间总存在着一层似有似无的隔阂。一个很小的群组里还存在着许许多多更小的群党。但到了最后，每个人还是每个人的朋友？敌人？都只是所谓的临时演员吧。有的时候，真心就真的在这些尔虞我诈的背后悄悄地被埋没了。

只有小孩，拥有不被污染的真心，单纯的童真，简单的快乐。只有在小孩子的面前，才会发现，可以那么真实的做自己，可以那么没有防备的卸下伪装的面具，回归似乎不见了许久的赤纯快乐。对啊，是在感叹，但是，世界就是这样。如果可以，永远都不要长大该有多好！

最近，爱上了 辣。生活太过单调了 以至需要一些辣来调剂吗？


还有五天就能回到家了。五天！一月 二十八号。星期五。
倒数中。

原来 失望是这种感受。言语 行为 思想 交流 所有都是枉然。



事  与  愿  违  ？

just the way you are

...and that's why i love chinese new year. two weeks to home!

*photographs: some random shots at pavilion. 

1/11/11

is nonetheless another blessed day. Good Lord.

It was fun taking the class photographs. Uh I'm looking forward to see the real photographs. A little bit of expensive though. But yah, memory is what matters.

Some photographs of the day, taken in the class. With How Soon's very cool mobile phone's camera. Awesome stuff! 

The class sorta ended already, fyi. :)

LIKE this! :)

Dinner with a bunch of brothers in Christ somewhere at Shah Alam. Played pool after that. It had been treating me, just fair? First round was good, but I would not say that for the second round. Nice fellowship though. Praise the Lord.

Cherish the last moments of 1/11/11... with sleep. Yah, sleep tight! Good night. God bless you!

frailty

It all happens because the 8am class was canceled. What more, the news arrived when we had already boarded on the Intec bus. The fun thing was seeing people running, rushing for class whilst we're taking our very sweet time strolling extraordinarily slowly to ALM Cafe and killing the half an hour there until the library opened. 

And it was a sudden thought flashing in my mind. I think I'm going to miss Intec after I really leave this place some day in the future. 

I'm feeling like fever. Ah please no. God, please bless me with Your will, whatever it may be. Amen.

I shall sleep.

week 1

Week 1 of the brand new year. Week 1 of the brand new semester. 

Exactly 7 days since I'm back to Shah Alam from my beloved Sibu. And you know what, I couldn't believe myself missing home so badly, almost everyday. I actually cried for five times for the reason, especially in the midnight, out of the period of seven days, which actually means five days out of the seven days. And the craziest thing I had done, I actually went online checking for cheap flight to Sibu, just so if there's any. You see how bad the homesickness was. Of course, I didn't manage to go home- the tickets were so friggin' expensive! 

The very first week wasn't really that bad, despite the really serious homesickness. But it just didn't feel like Spring, which means to be hectic and busy. Perhaps it's just the first week. Weather had been treating me well. And I really hope it remains as it's now for the next few months. I'm just loving this awesome weather!

Spring semester. I'm currently taking six subjects. They'd be Chemistry, Experimental Chemistry, Cell Biology, Technical Writing, Ethics (as usual), and another very interesting special subject, which again is meant for the only nine Agriculture Science-based us, Statistical Theory for Economics. Special huh? Another thing is, I'll be studying about law, you know, law as in the Federal Constitution for the Ethics this time around. I've no idea of why, so don't ask me why. Classes had been uh, so far so good? 

Spring '11.

And you know what. We, most of us received warning letter from the hostel staff for not doing clearance for the previous semester. Crap. And I'm admiring our skills of composing something which basically is not the fact. But I really didn't see the point. I mean, we actually did clearance, it's just that we didn't return the key to the office. But yah. There it goes.

Compose.

The other day we went to Sunway Pyramid. A sudden random decision and that's all. The funny thing was, you know, we're running after train. Literally. We were miles away when the train was reaching. We ran, and ran, and ran like never before. That was so FUNNY. I'm smiling now when I recalled it. Yah, so we ran and thank God that we managed to get in the train eventually. I guess we're going to kill ourselves if we couldn't catch the train, in the fact that we ran like crazily exaggeratively hard. And here's another very funny account. Our beloved Ivy had been so direction-less to not know how to differentiate the head and the tail of the train. When Yeh Tung was saying to get in the compartment at the head of the train, she went running all the way to the very very last compartment, which is the compartment at the tail of the train. Uh huh, she has had very good stamina!   

I had great time, despite all odds. HAHA. The red apple of Ivy, the green apple of mine, and the raw vege of Yeh Tung! Had a great time dining and photo-shooting at Pasta Zanmai. 

Pasta Zanmai. :)

And then, we intruded into Angelina's room blasting her during her big day. Successful blast! Happy 20th. May the year and decade ahead be joyous, prosperous. Experience God's grace abundantly and may the mighty Lord bless you richly in every aspects of your life! God loves you. I love you. :D

Thank you for making it a success. 

God is good. Meeting church brothers and sisters after a hiatus of two months felt great. Freedom to commit, power to transform! Praise, worship, is all to the Lord.

And today, I was frustrated by my long fringe and out of random I took scissors and cut the fringe a little bit. Myself. Whoa. I just cut like that. Now I'm suddenly fretting what if I cut it not nice. Anyway, thank God that my skill was still okay. At least it's not too bad, and the most important thing is the fringe doesn't feel frustrating anymore. :)

Many people actually said that my blog is too wordy. Uh huh, so perhaps new year's resolution on this blog would be inserting more pictures in between the words. If I'm not lazy. 

And so, week 1 was gone. 

Three more weeks to Chinese New Year.

I'm so looking forward to going back Sibu!

back-to-back

It's time to try defying gravity.
But it really doesn't work.

Back in Shah Alam, reluctantly. No one would have come back willingly I guess. I'm so unprepared. Yet class is going to start very soon. You know, that kind of familiarity which is yet strange. I think I'm still not adaptive enough. 

The later half of the year-end-break, like I mentioned in the previous post, I had been working as a promoter. And that was such a great experience, or I would rather say, memory. You know, working in supermarket is but a way to meet a lot, I mean, a lot of people. I had met so many friends and a lot of my high school's and primary school's teachers. And that we got to catch up a little bit, and that's great! I wouldn't have the time and chance to really catch up with so many people in only a few days. Another thing is all those new friends I had come to know. Those other products' promoters. I really had great time. And now I start to miss them already.

The youngest ones, three of us. :)

The most wonderful time of the year, Christmas was but time to rejoice, time to give thanks, time to celebrate, time to learn the truest meaning of the Christmas day. The very thick and deep atmosphere of this lovely festival was indeed without doubt, implanted in the very blessed town, the very lovely and pretty hometown of mine. And you see, that's why I wanted to spend my Christmas back home. 

Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. -Luke 2:11.

Joy to the world. 

With Ms. Wong's birthday celebration of much love and joy, and the complement of the romantic venue- Baba and Siam, I was indulged. The romantic, cozy, late afternoon, and it's as if we're back to our high school time, chattering, babbling away in a so familiar tone and pitch, and that's very awesome. Love can be very simple, when you're feeling it with heart, sincerely. 

Happy Birthday. <3

Church's youth camp had really made me reminisced my very own youthful days. And I smile. Lord has my teenage years great. Yes, reminiscent is beautiful, memory is great. Time flies, but life goes on. No? Yet it's kind of uh, pathetic to realize that I'm stepping into 20 years old. 

And with that, 2010 ended. To sum it up, 2010 was good and bad. But I thank God for every paths He leads me on. I thank God for His abundant blessings throughout the year. I won't say it was an easy year, there were times when things just went wrong and I got really pissed. But with Lord's guidance, every step I had taken went on with intensive peace, joy, and hope. I love you, Jesus.

Bye 2010. Hello 2011.

Faith. Hope. Love.

And it really does work.