God is good

all the time! And all the time, God is good! 

Praise The Lord. =)

dealt

Dealt. A lot of it. I don't want to forfeit any more tickets! 

I don't care being a bad student, I want home. I want the Chinese New Year at home, and I mean HOME.

Good, but they said better. Say, best?

*还是认为你最特别 却不再挽回 会心碎的拥抱 适合浅尝不适合深深的沉醉

思

Looking back, the previous post was a bit harsh. Oops.

Everything was over now. So, hopefully no more those kind of ferocious feeling around. 

Two weeks of preparation, two weeks of sleep-depriving, two weeks of happy and unhappy accounts, two weeks of hard work, finally paid off. The exhibition was a great success! Bygone is bygone. Let the past be the past, and the bruise be healed soon. And thank all who came for it! Your presence were really appreciated! A big thank to all the committee members as well. Thank to our caring and thoughtful lecturer! 

UKM Biology Field Trip was exhausting, but fun! Had a great time jungle trekking, feasting, and visiting. Had a great time shooting, with a Canon EOS DSLR. Thank you Aje! And now I think I prefer Nikon more for a DSLR-camera. Canon's functioning is actually not as much. For a digital camera, yesh, I still love Canon! 

I had been sleeping a lot, as a revenge for those lost-sleep. But I'm still sleepy now. You see, how much sleep I had been depriving! And you know, sometime, life can be so screw-ful, sleep actually soothed and eased the frustration. 

突然很想要写华文。

这些天，眼泪特别泛滥。眼泪在落下的同时间，那种本能的自我保护意识无形中愈变愈强。那种时而的戳痛感还是无法避免。知道吗，看着你，眼眶竟然就红了。

生活就是有太多的是非。群体活动无法避免的总会有些摩擦。人就是这么奇怪的生物。谁又多做了什么，谁又少做了什么，真的就这么重要吗。所以说啊，生气的时候，心情不好的时候，还是不要说话。因为你不知道你会说出什么，因为你不知道你所说的话有可能就刺伤了某些幼小心灵。

与其说沉默带来尴尬，不如说它让两颗那么遥远又那么亲近的心带来一些安慰。因为，有时候真的没有必要再说一些什么。因为你也不知道要说一些什么。因为你也知道再多说一些什么也改变不了什么。因为你更清楚知道沉默才是最好的良药。

有的时候，生活不要太过的执著。因为最后受伤的是自己。知道自己努力过久够了，至少往后回头望时，还能很骄傲的对自己说，我曾经也努力过了，结果如何也不再这么重要了。

终于把PS男给看完了。整个就是很感动！差一点就要把整盒的纸巾用完。不知道啊，它就给了很深很深的感触。也可能是在深夜时候看的，所以眼泪才会特别的多吧。最后还是完美的结局，男主角和女主角就快乐的在一起了。偶像剧真的太美化真实生活。现实生活为什么就不能拥有王子与公主的童话故事呢。

生活呢，功课考试接踵而来。大学申请，已经有了大致的概念。最后的决定是 Maryland, Iowa, Penn State, Purdue. 希望是对的选择吧。

这一篇感觉有点不协调。英文掺华文。

知道吗，原来想念真的是会呼吸的痛。

Missing.is.a.pain.of.breathing. 

7448

DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SPELL, S.H.I.T.?

YOU ARE A SHIT! S.H.I.T. S.H.I.T S.H.I.T. S.H.I.T S.H.I.T.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHT TO SAY ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE SHIT! DAMN BLOODY FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!!! 

I HOPE YOU ARE SNEEZING NOW! SNEEZE UNTIL YOU CHOKE! EWWWWWW!

PLEASE DON'T BE SO SHIT! YOU ARE NOT MIGHTY, BUT YOU ARE A FREAKING COWARD!!! YOU LOSER!!!!! 

S.H.I.T. 7.4.4.8.

bug

This Fall is CRAZY! Damn Ethics! I didn't even sleep so late during Spring! Yes, sleep is a very crucial, very big portion of my life. The length of sleeping very straightly and directly affects the mood of the day! Don't mess with me when I had slept for like so little fucking hours! 

Sucks! Not of the project itself, but of the certain beings, or the being! You suck!! You SUCK!! And I never knew I could dislike a person like so much, until at a point of exaggeratively freaking bad. 

And I guess I'm having a very serious Pre-Menstrual-Syndrome now! 

And this week is going to be a terribly sickeningly freakin' week! 

Life is a shit at this moment!  

(u)

No, the bulgy wasn't due to the depriving of sleep. But of crying. For like an hour? And the blanket and pillow were wet. Miss you(s), who are so near yet so far. The unfamiliarity. You know, I'm actually jealous. 

Busy. At least, something to deal in getting rid of the thought. Not really tired physically, but emotionally. You know, the heart is really painful that I thought I need pain killer to avoid the abrupt malfunction. And it's as though, bleeding. 

Pretended to be very busy, pretended to be very unconcern, pretended to cheat own self. Tears said it otherwise.

I love you(s) still. Days of this kind are killing. As though the self had vanished.

(u) actually means, the broken heart icon.

3am

Bathing at this moment isn't a good thing. *Cannot let mummy know about this!*

It feels refreshing though. The feel of cleanliness. Alright, not that I didn't want to bath earlier, days had been very hectic at this point. And it will progress until I guess, the end of next week. Goodness, I'm going crazy soon! Of sleep-depriving! 

ETHICS. This is what everyone of us is mad with. The exhibition. Okay, so let's promote a bit on it. Yes, the exhibition entitled "A Venture Into The Ancient Egypt". I hope I didn't get it wrong. Held by the Ethics' students of Alabama and Arkansas. Date, 1st October 2010, Friday. Venue, the Old Library, Intec. People, be there! To witness the legend, to amaze in the Egyptian kingdom, to chew the sincere of us, to wow of the every single hard-works! Or, at least, to bow a support for us. We need your supports!

So, I'm in the compartment of Science and Technology. So, all sorts of preparations explain the busyness. Indeed, we're competing with time now. Like, we are making the greatest good use of every single minute, or even second!

Alright, a very short catch up. Shall sleep, and go for Ethics class later on. Ah, Ethics! Ah, Egypt!

独

眼泪很不争气的直流。

机上，小孩放声的大哭。
反而不觉得喧闹。
霎时，羡慕他们，想哭就哭。

行李都还存有家的味道。

突然，人事物都变得很陌生。
原来，寂寞是一个人的事。

hue

Had been staying in Sibu for two weeks and more. You see, how time flew! An intention, or desire to reminisce and type down every single things happened during the past two weeks, for there were indeed, too many wonderful, splendid accounts which shall be etched.

It started off with the spree in One Utama. Cindy and I went all the way from Shah Alam to KL Sentral, while Olivia on her bus traveling all the way down from Ipoh. Thank Olivia for the (repeated) delays of her bus, Cindy and I nearly rot at KL Sentral, Burger King. We had been talking and talking and talking until at one point, we were really exhausted and sleepy. And Olivia still hadn't arrived. Alright, skip the details. By any means, we made our way to One U at the end. And the journey searching for a toy named Gigo began. Had been searching high and low, but sad to say, the mission failed, and a conclusion was made: One U is very BIG.

After that, Fen Fen came and joined us. Her place is just a walking distance from One U. With her recommendation, we had our dinner at Canton-i. Good dinner. Nice food, nice drink, nice place, nice people. Photographs! Lazy to upload them here, so there's the link. After the dinner, we shall be heading back to hostel. Note the word shall be. The plan shuddered and ended up with randomness. We love to be random, don't we? We ended up in the cinema, watching Step Up 3D. It was awesome! Yesh, awesomeness! And lovely, at the same time. Love it!! So, when the movie ended, the curfew had passed as well. We ended up overnight at Fen Fen's place. Thank you, Fen Fen!

The next day, went back to Akasia. Packed, and headed to airport! Took cab, with the occupants spelled Olivia, Polycarp, Kelvin, and I. The uncle was very talkative. Huh. Coincidentally, many friends were taking the same flight. And a friend sitting next to me on the plane. Cool. Had been talking a lot with Jacky, and made it the first time I didn't sleep so much in the plane. Otherwise, sleeping will be the best thing to do in plane, at least for me, it is.

Landed in Sibu, and the splendid days went on. Alright, I'm lazy to list all the details out, so, let's go with some significances.

So, because of some random sayings and comments in Facebook, and a mighty trip was produced. LOL. Rachel came to Sibu! Touring around Sibu was fun! She stayed at my house, nah, we had been sleeping together for two nights! *To whom it may concern: Angelina, Andrew, Siau Ting!* HAHAHA. Thank Rachel for coming, despite all odds (I know, the bus journey wasn't an easy job!). Thank Angelina! Thank Siau Ting! Thank Andrew! So, here goes the link of photographs. And another album of photographs. Let's the pictures speak!

Went back to high school for the Dossier thingy. Had been working on it, like, finally, I'm working on it - all sorts of translations, recommendation letters, certifying stuff. And going back to the place which I used to be in for the past few years, the place with tons of memory instilled, gave a feel of warmth. Everything feels the same way as it used to be. Indeed, high school is a part of life, a very significant part, the teenage-years which mean a lot!

Went for movie Piranha with Ms. Wong and Olivia. Oh my God! The movie was crazy! Yea, people with heart attack shouldn't go for it, really. Well, the movie was censored like really much, making it with the duration of an hour and a half, only. And you know what I told Olivia after the movie? I don't want to go to sea anymore! HAHA. So you see the impact of the movie. Anyway, the storyline was kind of cliche, but I do really love the way they produced the effects of the movie, be it the audio effect or the visual one. Cool! Uh well, like Ms. Wong said, the ending was lame, very lame! A big thank to Ms. Wong for fetching me back after the movie, as well for helping in the recommendation letters!

Along with Ivy, met up with Xin Yi. Whee, look like a Japanese girl already. Haha. As sweet and lovely as always, the trademark of hers. Nice to catch up with you. All the best in Japan alright? Take care! Don't skip meals, you're thin enough. Lol. God bless you abundantly and fruitfully!

Went for the Lantern Festival at the town-square. Wow, it was amazing. Sibu is so beautiful! Sibu peeps out there, must go for a look! Of course, captured a lot of photographs. It's a must, no? Uh, so let the pictures tell how beautiful is the scenery. Browse on the photographs!

Went to collect my Identity Card, or so-called MyKad. Went to bank and something amusing happened. I thought I had 900 bucks or more in that particular account, so I withdrew 900 bucks. And the receptionist said, you have about 500 bucks only. Ouh! I was embarrassed. *blushing* In the end, I just realized the another cheque with the amount of 500 bucks was not banked in to the account. I could have just withdrawn the amount by cash.

Went to my grandparents' house for the advanced lantern festival-celebration. Somehow, I love the way they live. The place, with peaceful tranquility, and closely relates to nature. Even the air feels fresh. People are very warm and somehow, humanitarian. Not to say the people in town or city area are cruel, but the people in the rural area are far more caring, helpful. Everyone is just very well related to everyone else, yes, you know what I mean.

And home. The feel of home, you know how it feels, don't you? The feel of dad, the feel of mum, the feel of siblings. The atmosphere, the temperature, the sound, the LOVE. The everything! 

Holidays officially ended, and class officially starts today. But mine is of the unofficial. *winks* 

I.just.don't.want.to.go.back.so.early.

我。你。他。

世事真的很难料，人生真的很可笑，有时真的想不到，它却真的发生了。

突然想起曾经在某一篇提及的你和他，应该也不算是突然想起，而是因为一些原因所引发的感触。当你和他在同一个时间，同一个地点出现在我面前时，我真的震惊了！诗巫真的就如此这么的小吗？

感叹的是，还是不能够很勇敢的去面对。可悲。就在那一线之间，顿时间很郁闷，很没劲，那原本很高涨的情绪一瞬间消失无影。那原本很美味的食物也仿佛瞬间变得淡而无味。可笑的自己，真的很可笑。

你的身边是她，一个大家都很欣赏的她。虽然很清楚知道你和她真的只是很好的朋友，心却还是揪着的痛了一下。明明是这么近的距离，你和我却似乎很有默契的什么也没说。但是你知道吗，在眼神对到的那一秒钟，我真的晕眩了一会儿。

真 的，就这么这么近的距离，却似乎这么这么远的两颗心。幸好的是，选择了比较靠边的位置，中间隔了一个人，才让自己不会太过份的紧张与窒息。但是却这么不争 气的一直偷偷瞥向你，一直很努力的想要听听你的声音。依然是那把很熟悉的属于你的声音，那强而有力让人很舒服的你的声音。

我和他，你和她。霎时，明白了，晓得了。原来，你真的无法被他取代。而对于他，再一次的了解。感觉还在，但是却轻易轻巧的被你打败。也明白，对他，应该不会有那一种的刻骨铭心。

刚刚又再一次的看见你。真的感叹，诗巫好“大”！这一次，他不在，她也不在。一走进那熟悉的地方，眼神冷不防的触礁在那很熟悉的脸孔。我觉得，嗯，准确来说，我希望你没有发现到 我。很快的找了一个你应该看不到的地方坐下，然后想起今天是星期日。啊！应该想到你一定会去那里的。

歌词这么写：真的情真的爱，无法用言语说。原来是真的。它无法被形容，只能细细的品茗那种丝丝心动，丝丝心痛的感觉。

我。你。他。

生命譜上，这么一个独特的音符，真的让我晕眩，让我窒息。

但，选择相信，时间可以疗伤。坚信，一切都会很好，再给我一点时间。

我，你，他，都会很好！

sound

Life is very the great now! Yes, it has been treating me well. Alright, everything is good. Home is fantastic!

Flight landed on Sibu last Saturday's night, 9pm. Safely and soundly, I smelt Sibu. Flight was good, with the fact that there were bundles of known friends around, and a friend had his seat just beside my seat itself. It was like, of course, most of the people were heading home during this very festive season, which is also known as the holidays; but meeting number of friends in airport was somehow, amazing. Yesh, met with high school's friends and started blasting off and somehow, dominated the whole LCCT. The spirit of the Eliza's princesses? HAHA.

You know what? Sibu had been raining everyday since I was back. The weather is just so refreshing. I'm just so loving it! Sibu is just so welcoming, and you feel the close-knit when people around start babbling away in Foochow. Well, I, or rather, my family joined a common-knowledge-competition held by the Lau's Association on the past Sunday. No more the category of secondary school's students this time, but the category of open ages, which means there were people with all ranges of age, uh well, they're mostly the elders. I guess I'm the youngest amongst all. Yea, that's the point. They were all talking in Foochow, and it just felt, you know, warm.

Recently, am hooked on PSP, like crazily! Alright, PSP is a great invention. As well as the other series of Play Station. Haha. Appreciate much for these inventions! Had been eating lots of fishes and fruits these days, which I really missed eating and which I couldn't have, but was so desperate of in Shah Alam. Had been crapping a lot. Had been watching a lot of movies. Had been working a little bit on dossier. Had been consuming the two well-knowns of Sibu: kampua and kompia. Had been attending a family function. Had been playing badminton with brother and sisters. Had been taking the photographs of sunset with my sister.

Alright, it's Thursday now. It's meant to be special for, you know what, Rachel is coming to Sibu! We had been planning this thingy for the past few days and we were like so exaggeratedly excited!! LOL. You see, it just happens, out of random. But I guess it's going to be fun! So, yay, I and Angelina are going to be tour guides. Hahaha. We had been thinking and sorting out where should we bring Rachel to, and guess what, Sibu actually got quite a lot of places to go to! Oh my God, I'm hyped! Seriously, I am. See you soon, Rachel! *winks*

Raya is approaching. So, Happy Raya people!

ecstasy

Alright, mid term was done! Coming up, holidays! Home!! Wheeeeee!

Yes, I'm excited, like really really much! Life is going to be wonderful. *grins*

Flight will be on Saturday. Before that, am going to meet with Olivia. Heh. One U, I'm coming. Yeah, the last shot on this Mega Sales. I hadn't really shop yet.

Packing luggage. This feels, extremely, good! HAHA.

Nah. It's merely a post, simply showing how great I'm now. I'm very happy, very joyous! Heeeee.

That's all. Catch up later.