A point-less day

Today is tantamount to Tuesday, in which should be a hectic, fully-packed day turns to be a day without any significant highlights and points, such a main point-less day.

First, it's Reading Class. It's initially known that we won't be having this class. But then I still went to school at 8am so as to prevent any "accidental" incidents to happen. Next, TOEFL Class. It had been canceled so I continued to lure around in library, and to throw myself into the deep sea of SAT. Inevitably, I fell asleep, where the environment is just so cozy for a good sleep.Then, Writing Class. We were asked to do exercises in the class. After that, I went for lunch with my friend. Next, went for the last class on the day, OC Class. It's done after finishing two listening tests. So, I reached hostel by just around 3:15pm.

Anyway, the days will continue to be busy and hectic. I can, in some ways, foresee it. The nearest grand thing is the Pre-Calculus Test tomorrow. After that, it's SAT Test on this coming Saturday. I start to feel intimidated and butterflies in my stomach, seriously. I really do hope I can do my best and score it with good grades. And, all the assignments which due in the very near future. Last but definitely not the least, it's the final exam of this semester. It's just around the corner, a very near corner.

So, should start to figure them out, from this very moment, without any further procrastination, which I am really unable to afford any longer, for my own sake of good.

Bliss. :P:P:P

Mid-autumn

It's a song which Cindy asks me to download. I cried when listening to it.

This is a mooncake festival without family. What a sad. People always regret just after they lose. I only know now and really have a thorough understanding of "独在异乡为异客,每逢佳节倍思亲". I miss my family a lot. I miss the moments we are together, they may be the laughter, sorrow, quarrel, etc... All those I miss, really.

My tears keep rolling down at this instant, typing these words and listening to this song. Learn to appreciate when you still have chance, really.

I know I am not alone on this festival. There are bundles of friends, whose little words or any single action which can somehow be a big encouragement in this foreign land.

Going to church now, I know I will be getting something from God tonight. He will prepare and makes the best!!

Cheer up!! :)

Ravenous

I am suffering, from hunger, seriously, I mean, HUNGER. Gosh, I am totally revenous now. Well, it's all of my own fault. I woke up late and so have no time to take breakfast. That is it, ends up with exagerrated hunger that my stomach is growling all the way.

And, these few days appear to be a critical period, for me. It's of those few days of the month, the honored feminine stuff. I have been grown to be so normal nowadays. This should be a good sign; BUT............. Okay, there is always a "But". Well, I should really learn to appreciate, instead of those endless complaints. And, it's the self-perspective which determines most of the things. Try to view things from another side, and it will make a great difference. It's sometimes the single glimpse which seems to be so minute that plays an imperative and decisive role.

Another thing is my mobile phone. Continue from the previous post, it is now in its dying condition, which means I am now having life without this important tool. It's so inconvenient!! Alright, be patience. "Patience is virtue". Lol. I will wait for 2 or 3 days, if it's not functioning still; then I will buy myself just simply a usable phone, I can not stand my life without this imperative tool. Seriously.

Going to leave now. I HOPE sincerely, there is a bus for me to go back. I do not want to become a corpse, who dies of starvation, ha ha. Just kidding, no offence.

Do catch up later.

:P:P:P

塞翁失马,焉知非福?

I have got a lot of things to say, but I don't really feel like writing. But somehow, I feel like writing them down, every single piece of things that have taken place in my life, to be the reminders and memories which I can refer to after all. It's just oxymoron. My mind is just always contradicting with my action.

A lot of things happen these days. Everyday will just load with its own things and they are really out of my expectation. We just can not expect what will happen the next second. Lots and lots of things happen; those of my own, friends, family. Sometimes I feel like can I just be a polar bear, and goes into a long period of hibernation that I need not to be fretting about all those things.

It is this certain quote which keeps crawling and echoing in my mind: "Something which you want is not really something which you need". There are so many circumstances in our life that we want somethings so badly, but then we do not really think carefully that whether the things are of our needs. It's at most of the time that the things are not of our needs, indeed. They are just somehtings we want, for our own sake of benefits and entertainings. From the perspective of Christianity, it's just the same and the utmost refernce will be to our supreme God. God will not give you what you want so badly if you are not in need for that particular thing. And the thing is not really the one which is tangible, it can be anything; sometimes, a relationship. For everythings we go through, there is God's meaning in it. Sometimes we may blame for difficulties and certain tragedies which fall upon on us, but God has His own purpose in them. He has his plan on us and what we should do is to follow His words. And, do not blame on God's timing. Wait, and God will give you when it's time for you to get and to experience.

That will be the part. Next, it's the thing of emotion. I get to cry so easily. I always wonder why is that so. I am a crying baby, so an easily-cry-bug. My tears glands have been grown too well, I guess. Ha ha. I have been crying ceaselessly when I am reading my friends' blogs. Cindy's, Angelina's and Joanna's. They are tears inducing somehow. Yes, they are.

"我们有哭有笑，哭是因为感动，是因为想念，是因为怀念，是因为自己的曾经的曾经；笑是因为开心，是因为庆幸，是因为珍惜……还有不明原因的笑" It's quoted from Joanna's blog-http://jyjona.blogspot.com/

That is the sentence which is so directly touches my heart and I can no longer hold my tears; they just drop, and I have no intention to stop them either. May be you will say that the sentence is just so simple that there's nothing to cry for; but I do. I can't help it, either. This time around, I find that songs can be so powerful. It was the day when we went for singing karaoke, I had cried so much, over few of the songs that we sang. Well, mostly, it's the friends-based songs. Also, those of family, especially parents. And also there is that specific song which makes me think of that particular being. I miss you much.

I shall stop myself before dropping into the memory lane any further. Well, there is a certain amusing event happens today, just this morning. I had dropped my handphone into the water. But then, the thing is that it still functions now. I dried it when I picked it up from the water. Well, the water is not of vast amount, but it;s also somehow quite a lot. Initially, it did not function where it did not respond when I pressed on it. Then, I went for my class and I just put my handphone in the pocket. After that, I tried and it could barely function, it lags all the way. And, now, it is functioning in its tip-top condition. What a funny account. And, actually, I feel like it;s functioning even better than it is before. My friend says the same thing to me too. Truly, it becomes extremely sensitive now. Before that, I need to press quite hard actually for it to detect, but then now it has been so sensitive that I just have to press softly for it to function. Just as what Angelina says, "塞翁失马，焉知非福". But then just now Olivia called me and told me that I would better not to use it for a short while so as to recover to its original state.

Anyway, now, I am really in a state of freezing. Lol. It's so and so cold. Catch up later. And, I am going to Spelling Bee Competition, as a forced aundience. :P

Miscellaneous

One week Raya holiday=MISCELLANEOUS and AMAZING.

I have lots of things to share with, but I don't really feel writing now. To be more precise, it is not just "now", but "anytime". I am indeed a genuine lazy bug, plus the attitude of procrastination; and this ends up in failure, failure in managing time, which appears to be the utmost obstacle in my life. So, it is actually a circle. And, it is the attitude which determines the later results of certain things. I guess I should really change a tune and to turn over a new leaf, for my own sake of benefits.

Way back to the holiday; it is really an amazing and wonderful one. It started from the last Friday, the trip and adventure to Times Square Cosmo's World; and the one to Sunway Lagoon on the next day which I had actually mentioned in the last post.

The ECA Family Camp followed next. It was a 3-days-2-nights-camp. Its location was Country Heights Resort, Kajang, which was so nice that I felt like did not want to return when the camp ended. It was a RESORT!! Anyway, that should not be the main point for it. The main thing is that the camp is so GREAT!! God is so GOOD!! His anointing is moving around and He is with us all the time throughout the camp. Pastor Lionel and Pastor Hamphrey are really great and powerful speakers. The sermons are just so great that I really learn a lot from this camp. Personally, the camp upgrades me a lot, from the perspective of spiritual growth, and I am sure it is also the same for others. I don't regret for joining it; in contrary, I guess I will be regretting to death if I have not join it. God is good all the time and All the time God is good!!!!!!!

Then, it was on Wednesday night that we went for "Tsunami" at The Curve. It was actually somehow a moving movie that I had actually cried for the certain parts of the scenes. After watching the movie, we had the chance to tour around at IKEA Showroom. And, illegally, we took quite a lot of nice and great photos there.

Thursday, we went to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate Joanna's 18th birthday. It was really a miscellaneous day. A lot of things happened and they had been decided just abruptly. Our schedule ended after feasting for the celebration. But then it was just so insane of us to suddenly decide of singing K. So, the things went. We went for Amp Square to had our Karaoke night. At the same time, we had booked a room in Hotel Sun Inns for our temporarily shelter as we were not able to go back to our hostel at that "early" time. We kept singing, until I had actually felt like losing my sound and had some minor kind of sore throat. We sang until Amp Square closed, that was 3am. Then, we headed to the hotel, and stayed overnight there. We checked out at nearly 12 noon. After that, we had our lunch at Popeye's. And, we hung around in Popular to wait for bus. And, FINALLY, we reached hostel at 3:30pm.

I prepared myself and went for International Fellowship. It was a nice fellowship!! God is so Great!! Hallelujah, Praise the Lord!!!

Cry

I think I am driving crazy, seriously. It is 3:21am and I have not sleep yet. It's the same as Angelina, Cindy and Joanna. We are possessing some sorts of insanity I guess.

Just to share some thoughts on "Tsunami". I went for it last night, which was a few hours ago. It was a good watch. And, I had actually cried for the part of saving the kid. I used to cry easily. Is it a good thing? Actually cry is a good way of expressing emotions and I used to get better after a good cry. So, it should be a good thing, at least for me.

And, just now, I cried once again when watching "Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang", my favorite Taiwanese program. It was the last episode of this program, and it was just so touching. The relationships between the boys are so real that I could not bear my tears. I just kept crying. And, at the same time, it was really true that all of the boys had grown up for all of these while. They had been more matured now and the cease of this program also did not mean to stop them from growing, but to let them grow from other and vast sources and areas.

I love you all!! Lollipop, BBT!!! You are always the BEST!!!!!!!!

Times Square Cosmo World and Sunway Lagoon trip

Times Square Cosmo World. It was Friday, 18th September 2009. I was actually exciting over exploring to this place and thinking of great time to be there. And, indeed, it was a "great" time to be. The games are designed to be so torturing.

Oh my God. I felt like spending my money to torture myself. What an "amazing" day there! I vomited and I felt so bad. Nausea, dizziness and I felt my head spinning all over.

People: Me, Cindy, Angelina, Joanna, Michelle, Chui Lim, Chui Ung, Wen Kiong, How Soon.

Next, it was Sunway Lagoon; on Saturday, 19th September. This time around, it was a real great and we really spent nice moments there. I missed it so much now. The games there are not meant to torture, but they are just so exciting and fun. And, it was great to meet Olivia up, who I had not seen for the past few months. She said I had actually gained some weight. *I should do something over it I guess. Yea.. I must. Ha ha.

Also, there were two crazy girls kept cam-whoring around; me and Wendy. We just love to do that, without any sense reasoning. Lol.

After that, we had our succulent dinner in Sunway Pyramid, guided by Joanna, who was so expertise and understanding of this place.

Nice time with you guys. :D

People: Me, Cindy, Angelina, Olivia, Wendy, Joanna, Michelle, Wen Kiong, How Soon.

And, these are the products of Times Square Cosmo World. What a disgusting bruise on my hand. I believe it is caused by the knocking and hitting when playing the game "DNA Mixer", which is a disgusting and torturing game!!

Smile

It seems that I have screwed up everything. But I do not really feel any mourn within myself, is it a good sign or a bad one? Well, over is over. I can not either do anything for it, or have some kinds of extraordinary abilities to mend over it. Hopefully I will learn a lesson from this particular incidence and do well the next time, which is in the very near future. Hopefully. It's the mid term exam which I mean. Sigh.

Sometimes, the difficulties and obstacles we face in our life are not really meant to turn us down; but, they may act as the motivation for us to struggle, even harder, so as to reach out for the brighter stars. Time will prove and I will be even more stronger through these noy-really-smooth-paths. Smile, instead of mourning over it!

For You

People can influence one greatly. Perhaps it's only a word, a sentence, a phone call, a smile, a nod... Directly, or indirectly, it enlightens me. It provides me with motivation, to go on; and it's at utmost influential when I am down and discouraged. I appreciate your words and smile much. They brightens me up, and some sort of revivifies me so as to go on my life. Thank you, really. All of my friends, I appreciate you guys, for your accompanying all these while, your encouragements, your smiles, your confirmations, etc etc....

Pieces of words just for all of these valuable beings:

Ivy:

Ivy... Thanks for all of these days, your love, your care, your confidence on me. I know it and I see it. I guess you are the being who understands me most among all of the friends. I appreciate it much. And, you are the one who will always remind me, on my daily stuffs, which most especially on my spiritual life. I need the reminder, truly to say. It's not that I am ignorant of this thing but it's just sometimes the matter of laziness and the trait of forgetful, and the failure in the matter of time management. I need your continuous prayer and encouragement. *wink*

Angelina:

Girl, you like to joke on me, it seems a pleasure for you to do so right? But then it has been nice to be with you, with all of your words, actions which will just make me burst into laughter. Chill. Thanks for your caring and accompanying for all of this while. You seem clumsy most of the time but you are the one with a minute, tiny and detailed sincerity in everything you do, which I am admired of, indeed. I think this will be enough. I scare you will feel a bit overrated and too proud of that. Ha ha. And, you are really kind enough to create some sorts of rumors and spread them to the whole world as if they are the truth. I really "appreciate" you much on that!

Cindy:

The girl who scares cat and cockroach and other small insects, until a stage that is far a bit exaggerated, ha ha. And, you are so THIN, I wonder will you be blown by wind one day. And, disdain me for not going to school on that certain day. Ha ha.. lol. Anyway, it's indeed nice time to be with you all, your accompanying and all sorts of that. Also, your parallelism with Angelina to make that certain "story" on me, it's really kind of you all; but you are still considered better if compared with Angelina.

Olivia:

It's kind of missing you, far far than what you can imagined! It's true. I have not seen you for more than half a year; so do catch up on the following Friday and it will be great one! And, I appreciate your phone calls every now and then, they are sorts of enlightenment too. The matter of distance will not be the obstacle in our friendship, I really believe in this, as for most of the times, one's friendship with others will not be so intimate even though they have been together all the times if their attitudes are of kinds of irritating. I think I have told you about this matter once, perhaps it's the matter of so-called "compatibility". Sigh.

Andrew:

You this guy.. thanks for your encouragements for all of this while. Your messages bring me up; I do really appreciate much on that. And, you can always make people laugh, it's not my problem of degree of laughing is low(but I do admit it's kind of low if compared to others), it is in fact your words are amusing sometimes. Besides, I have really admired for your muse in Chinese. Your Chinese is so PRO. In fact, I find sense of moving deeply in your words, and some of those are like kind of tears inducing. Honestly, I find your words great and powerful. Keep it and do update your blog often.

It will be all for now, and others who are not in the list, I do appreciate you all too. I am not the kind of Biased. Just that I know myself the degree of it. It seems that I have been so EMO in this post. It's reason-less. One's emotion is difficult to understand. It changes from time to time, and its rate is especially fast and unpredictable for a girl.

Currently have been so addicted into a Taiwanese drama, "K.O. 3an Guo". This post is written while waiting for the drama to run; kind of good time management! Ha ha.

God is GREAT

This site is been on hiatus for a while again. It was quite hectic for all of this while, all those homework and assignments, and the bygone mid term tests. That is the foremost reason. And, of course, the matter of laziness does play its role for all the while. Even worse, procrastination, the type of endless one. In fact, I find that laziness and procrastination are like just same. Both link and both always take place at the same instant.

A quick update on these two days.

Saturday, equally 5th September, I went for the morning prayer in church. It had been a nice one. God is with us all the time! It was on that evening, I and others went to Subang ECA by KTM; Karl fetched us up there to church. I had my ECA Introductory Class for the last part, which was the sign of becoming one of the members in Oikos officially. *wink-ing*
Then, as usual, it was Saturday's service, which was a good one as well. The worship is great and powerful.

Sunday, 6th September. Went for the morning service in KL ECA. It was a nice service where God really is with us. I felt HIM, truly. I saw the door of heaven was opened and I got His message: just believe in Him whenever and wherever, He will be my side always, and He will lead me through all the days. In Him, nothing is impossible. God is Great! Thank you Lord, thank you Jesus. I realized. I was awaken. I reflected and I knew You are with me all the time, either the bad one or the good one. You never abandon me. I gave myself to You and I knew Your spirit is falling upon and filling me up abundantly. My tears fell, in a condition of profusely, and ceaselessly. It's Your power that touched on me. Lord, You are great!

It is just some sort of testimonial words, for God, the almighty one. It's a declaration. I declare that God is really great and powerful. There's nothing impossible in Him. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good! You are wonderful, beautiful; and nothing in this world can compare to you. Thank you Lord!

Lastly, in this coming entire week, particularly, I set myself a mission, the one between me and God. I pray to God that He assigns me with intellectual that I can manage my time wisely, and in balance portion that I do everything well, in my studies, my spiritual life, my time to family, friends since I have always messed myself up in the matter of time management. I will do it, and it will surely be a testimony for God that I can overcome any obstacles in the presence and guidance of Him. It will be a good week!

Memory

It is a memory amongst all memories.
I still remembered all of the things we went through together. I felt relieved with your words. Regretted for those days we wasted, on the other hand.

Learn to appreciate what you are having now.
You can never replace once you lose.
Believe me.

Modify-ing

I am LAZY.

Laziness--the characteristic which has been possessed in me from before until now, and guess will follow too in the future. What should I actually do to conquer this tentacle, seriously I am wondering.

I must turn to a new leaf, by the way. I MUST. I SHOULD. Hopefully I WILL. lol. Studies is getting hectic gradually, and will get really packed and hard in the very soon. So, please....let me change. Be HARDWORKING!!!

Deal with my homework! Hope I will stay update with my blog, a changing point for my laziness at the same instant. Bliss..

*The title-Modify-ing.
In my own muse, it's the action which is still in action. I will try hard to modify, from a lazy bug, to at least, bit more hardworking. Bless me! :)